SOSO Susie

今天突然从收藏夹中看到soso susie，才记起来还有这个space

玩校内网太多都没到这儿来写日志了

大家有上校内网吗？

有的话应该能搜到我的

现在在北京德勤实习，每天就干些苦力活，核对数字，抽查凭证，函证，都是最简单的活儿，head都不知道给什么难度的活儿我们做好

于是昨天前天我们就变得没活儿干了

大家寒假好吗？我17号晚上的飞机回深圳，然后23号火车回北京，希望能买到火车票，要不就惨了。

嗯，祝大家寒假愉快。

这么久没打扫，大家想念我了吧，哈哈

我要忏悔!

前天去灵山，和猪,他室友和两个女生，凑成３男３女一起去．由于去的人都比较搞笑好玩，所以整个旅途都比较愉快

灵山风景很漂亮，我们山间还骑马来着

住的房子只要１５元／人／晚，好便宜！

这个假期好累啊，又是运动，又是案例竞赛，还有好多书要看，最恐怖的是还有ＧＲＥ我放了好久都没理．．．．．．

唉，听天由命吧

Awake now my friends?Great France!

From now on, I wish......

I've finished my exams of this semester, which puts an end to my sophomore life and symbolizes the commencement of my junior path, adding more touches to my whole life, whatever scintilating remarks or silly nonsenses.

From now on, I'll look back to my past for guidance and cast my sight to the future, seeking my own career path and life route, not a path with roses as ornament but one with touching stones on the way testing my abilities, my fortitudes and my persistence, not a route pointing straightforward to specific success in specific professions but one directing me to the true value of life, leading me to shape my own destiny and build my unique characters.

From now on, I'll cheer up for the ending of my continuous apprehension of every step I make in studies and interpersonal relations, and for the beginning of my everlasting adherence to enthusiasm and friendliness as well as broad smiles, to embrace not only the beautiful sunshine days but also the dim rainy days. As is put by Martin Luther King,"we must accept finite dissapointment, bu we must never lose infinite hope."

From now on, I'll keep my industry and persistence in study, and extend them to every aspect of my life. No matter what mistakes I'll make, no matter what barriers I'll meet, I'll never give up but strive as usual. Only through trials and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired and  success achieved. To me, every day is a day of reckoning. To my life, every step is a step worthy of memorization. To everyone, life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you're gonna get.

I wish everyone a chance to release from the clammy grip of the future. I wish everyone the right to embrace the nature and the true value of life through experiment, triping and falling. I wish everyone to savor each segment of life, to learn that defeat is as instructive as success and is not the end of the world. I wish everyone a progressive discovery of their ignorance and intelligence, to see the merits and pitfalls.

Here, I wish.

My roomate was invited by her friends to the Hai Dian Theatre to see the premiere of Da Vinci Code(Free a!!!). Admire!!! If only the ticket price were not that expensive and costly!

Last week my teacher of the course English news reading and writing showed us a piece of movie review about Da Vinci Code, in which the author criticized that it took longer to watch than to read, meaning that Da Vinci Code is tedious and doesn't meet cineastes' expectation, adding that the lines are doused in religious jargons and hard to understand. Anyway, I want to find my own answer to the question whether Da Vinci Code is a good movie and what it is about. Hopefully it will be put on in the PKU Hall la...

Last week I just finished my first Test of English as a Foreign Language, a word echoing in my mind in high frequency in the past months. Anyway, I've tried my best, though I was a little bit discouraged by those guys claiming that the test was so easy that it took them no more than half an hour to finish the reading comprehension part!

Next month comes the final examinations urging us to struggle again for the GPA, seemingly important for us now, I believe, not for our whole life, fortunately.

Hopefully in the few days that I will be in Shenzhen, I can see you guys. Unfortunately, many of us seem to be enmenshed in the English tests stuff, like GRE and New Oriental English study.

I was really frustrated today because I lost my wallet for the forth time! I'm sure someone, may be a PKU student, stole my wallet when I was off guard. My poor cards, bank card, swimming card, student ID card, and the RMB notes! When will the day come that the amnesia can get away from me?

Go to bed and dream of my poor wallet!

I've received the email from my accounting professor. In his letter he detailed the academic route in accounting and depicted the obstacles and barricades set in front of me,which, to some degree frustrated me a little bit. The PhD program of HKUST is very competitive, and chance is small for a graduate to get enrolled in the accounting program right after graduation, as was said by the professor. But anyway, I'd like to give it a try, though now I am no longer as confident as before. Hopefully my sky would be clear soon.

I'm really excited to see messages of you guys in my space!

I haven't received the final result of the scholarship program yet but the resuilt is said to come out in a few days. Hopefully I can get it and then I can reduce the economic presure of my parents. The top 1 student will receive scholarship to cover the tuition fees and living fees, which add up to a big sum. However there's an defect of this program-scholarship receiver has to work in accounting area for 2 years after graduation, excluding consulting companies and investment banks as well as commercial banks.

Actually I'm thinking of pursuing a doctoral degree in HKUST and graduate one year earlier.

Next week several midterm exams are coming up to me, pushing me to work much arduously at the exam stuff, caulking every space of my life.

Add oil! Susie! Add oil! Everyone!

Haven't logged on my space for long!

 

These days, after the commencement of the sophomore semester, I spend most of my time studying English, preparing for the endless and numerous English tests, English interview, etc. The day before yesterday, I went to the fortune center and took an assessment test in Price Water House Coopers( the big4 accounting firm) for a scholarship program. I didn't perform quite well in the interview and worse still, suffered a lot from the high heels of the tough shoes.

 

This month I have been under afflictment of the flu demon, causing me to stall all my onhand jobs, losing mood to enjoy the sunshine but staying in bed meditating my unfortune these days.

 

Hopefully I can convalese asap. Tomorrow I can say a new Susie comes back.

A few days later, I'll get on the train and go back to the extremely cold BJ. I suddenly feel that if I just let time fly away here, I'll feel repentant when I am alone in my dorm, when I walk without anyone accompanying me in the empty street, when I have dinner talking to myself. My mum's smile, my friends' faces, my brother and sister's laughing, my life in SZ and HK......I'll miss all of these. I still remember when I first entered PKU, I cried several times at the thought of the fruits my mum prepared for me when I felt tired, the sweet words she whispered to my ear, the warm hug she gave me in the cold summer. Now I'll go back again. Will I be able to get used to the life in BJ? I don't know.

HK, my memory forever.

I have read too few books, Chinese or English. I have concerned too much on the textbooks. He once told me that if I concentrate only on the textbooks, I'll not only waste the precious time in the university but also miss the valuable moments in everyday life. He's right, but what can I do. Spare more time for the books I'm interested in? Then how can I finish my task, to memorize the vocabularies, to get high GPA, to further my study and fulfill my dreams? I don't know how to keep good balance between these tough stuffs. I do hope that someone will lead me out of this strange circle and come up to the world of sunshine.

I'm really glad to hear this song on his space. We have been together for more than half a year since June 30 last year.

We have come across some difficulties, met with unhappiness, enjoyed the wonderful moments, and seen the beautiful sunshine in last beautiful summer.

Never will I forget the light wind blowing in the nameless lake. Never will I forget that beautiful sunshine.

 

I've booked a train ticket back to BJ this morning. According to the train schedule, I'll arrive in Beijing at 3:30 on the afternoon of Feb 1st. Right after arriving at Peking University, I'll have to rush to the New Oriental School to take the GRE course which is due to begin at 3:20. I tried to book the train ticket on Jan 30th which will enable me to have a rest before the class. However I forgot to book the ticket that morning and when I remembered this stuff, all the tickets had been sold out. Poor me!

It's cold today in Shenzhen but I still thought I was strong enough to protect myself against the cold, so I only wore a few clothes. However, I'm not as strong as I expected. I got cold. 555. What will my life be when I go back to Beijing at the end of this month? Will I easily get defeated by the terrible weather in Beijing? Hopefully not.

I want the warm air and the cool wind in the spring!

 

 

It's Jan 23 today and I'll go back to Beijing on Jan 30 by train. Traveling along the railway for nearly a whole day is not a easy job. I still don't know what means I can use to kill the time. Memorizing GRE vocabularies? Sending messages? Sleeping or eating? I don't know. Maybe I'll try all the means mentioned here.

In the remaining days in Shenzhen, I do want to utilize it more efficiently. I want to see more smiles from the faces of my parents, brother,and sister. Both my sister and brother didn't do well in their final exams and thus my parents do worry about their study. So do I. But I know my sister has tried her best but due to some unexpected situations, she failed to give out good performance in the exams. Now I'm tutoring her maths. Hopefully I can lead her to the right way of study, at least, give some help to her. I know, having a sister like me is great pressure to her. Many of her friends and many of the relatives would say to her:" Look! Your sister is so excellent. You should learn from her and study as well as she did. You must be able to study well having such an older sister." She cannot feel good hearing these comments. I can understand part of what she feels but not all.

What about my brother? He is still too young to understand my feelings towards him. It's natural actually. After all he's only a child of 13. I cannot demand too much of him. My mother told me that I should give him more compliments since he is obstinate. I tried this method and it worked!

I have to start memorizing GRE now. What a tough and endless job!

 

 

I forgot to post this diary yesterday so I'm doing it now.

Yesterday we, about 20 students from the former class 12 and then  class 1, went back to Shenzhen Middle School to meet our teachers and friends. In the teachers' office, we talked for quite a long time. I can feel that everyone changes a little bit, though not conspicuous. I didn't talk much with my teachers, maybe because I was not quite talkative in middle school and thus I didn't have good relationship with my teachers. It doesn't matter much for me, actually.

We had dinner together and Mr Shang treated all of us. Thx for his dinner!

What mattered most was not the gathering but the QQ group talk! When I logged on the QQ program last night, a QQ message poped out, saying: I'm really sorry! Please forgive me. It was a message from Wang Bin. I was quite befuddled and asking myself: What had happened? When Piggy logged on, he asked me whether I had read the messages in the QQ group. I didn't activate the function of receiving messages from the QQ group so I asked him for the record. He copied the record and sent it to me. I GOT IT! It was Wang that spread the issue of Piggy and me in the QQ group. No wonder so many of my friends asked me about it. I was indeed a little bit unhappy about it at first, but I didn't take it seriously at all. Sooner or later everyone will know and thus does it matter or not that everyone knows our issue and discusses it?  It doesn't matter.

What matter is that we can get along well with each other.

Hopefully I will not copy the previous dating and followed the same faults.

Today I continued tutoring my cousin English. His English is really very poor and I even cannot bear it. When I asked him to pronounce "now", he shook his head and said he didn't know. I repeated a sentence three times and he still could not copied the sentence into his notebook. I asked him to listen to the radio at home and do more reading and listening exercise, but he didn't listen to me and prefered to watch TV. I really didn't want to tutor him any more and I shouted to him a little bit loudly. Then he cried in a low voice. I felt guilty at that moment. I should not shout to him. He just didn't know how to study English and didn't have interest to English. I should be more considerate.

I'll try to calm down tomorrow.

It's said that we will go back to Shenzhen middle school and pay a visit to the teachers who once put all their hearts to us. I'm really looking forward to that day's decendence. Though I'm not talkative in my middle school and didn't have much interaction with my teachers, I do hope to see them again and pay homage to my motherschool again. It has been a year since I went back for a visit. Are there any changes taking place in the campus scenery? What about the students there? What about the dining canteen, my top one concern when I studied there? And what about my friends, my dear classmates? Did they go on well with their study in their university?

I do wanna to know a lot of things. I do look forward to that day.

I'm really glad to see him today. He is the same as before, a little bit silly and sincere still.

Though the movie is not as well produced as I expected, which adds to the imperfectness of today, I do value every moment I have this afternoon.

The day before yesterday, I had an arguement with my mother.

That night, I had a long phone conversation lasting about half an hour with my roomate Roslyn. She is now having her internship in Mckinsey Consulting Company, a company that many students wish to work in, mostly due to the high salary. I really admire her but at the same time I think that she deserves this chance to take the internship, because she is really so able a girl. She can use photoshop with proficiency to create beautiful pictures and she can handle many complecated and intricated stuff without much difficulty. She is trustworthy and she always treats her friends with sincerity. She never hesitates to help me when I am in trouble. What a good friend she is!

When I told my mother her case, she told me that it's good to work and earn money for me. It's not worthy to further study. I paraphrase her words like this: I should work directly and earn money back for them. She didn't understand me. She doesn't know how much I desire to further my study and I don't want to work with only a bachelor degree. I have my own plan but she only cares about the fees. I want to earn money myself and I don't want to use their money. I want to let them know I can support myself with the money earned by myself.

Next year, I want to apply for the student loan and I will pay back my tuition fees when I graduate. I will.

I have worked as a tutor of my cousins and my brother these days. It's not easy to be a good tutor because without patience and enthusiasm and empathy, it's hard to touch your 'students'' heart and let them understand your teaching.

After several days' practice, I have developed my patience. I didn't easily get angry with them at their being unable to understand my teaching and finishing their task I assigned to them. I have made progress in teaching! I need to make more efforts and help them with their study.

Today my aunt told me that her daughter, my cousin, had achieved great progress in the subject I once tutored her. I'm really glad to see her progress under my teaching. It's much more important than the money, the tutoring fees.

I hope one day I can go to the countryside as a volunteer and impart my knowledge to the children there . This is my dream, my wish and my hope.

Someone told me to jot down my everyday feelings in my space and not to focus only on my GPA. Yeah, I care too much about my GPA, the superficial thing. What values most to me is my own life, my own feelings, and my own real space.

I told him that I only wanted to use English as the only language of my space and I could not express my feelings in English well  but I knew it's only an excuse. As long as I do pay a visit to my own true feelings I could write it in either English and Chinese. It's not a problem!

I admit that I'm a superficial girl. I'm mostly concerned about the fame and the plaud. I haven't explored the significance behind lives, the most precious thing underlying the GPA and the applause.

Now I do want to explore my world and I'd really like to develop my space with heart and soul.

I'm more and more like a pig now. I slept untill 11 o'clock this morning. Picking up the GRE book just makes me feel sleepy. How can I be more persistent on the way of preparation of GRE?

I just received A Bai's photos taken in her military training life, which reminded me of my military training life in Beijing. In retrospect to those days, it's really a hard time. Every day, we need to get up at 5 a.m and couldn't sleep untill 11 p.m because of the chatting between my roomates. Every morning and afternoon when the sun was shining fiercely, we had to stand straight in the sun without moving a little. At lunch time, we rushed to our dinner table and eat like beasts. When it was our turn to clean our room, we had to use handkerchief to tidy the ground tile by tile.

To be honest, I will never want to experience these again in my life though I do learn something but in my eye, those things are useless.

Good bye forever, my military training!

Today it's the last day of my internship but I feel rather glad. Why? Because I can escape from the dull and monotonous days in this company. Actually I didn't learn much here. I only stayed in my seat and did some reading. I have started studying LCCIEB Second Level Book-keeping and Accounting. However I encounter too many difficulties in the process of study. Hopefully when I go back to PKU I can seek help from the professors.

I pick up the GRE vocabularies again today. Reluctantly I have to face this real world.No way to escape the English examinations.I'm still thinking of which exams to take first. GRE then TOEFL? Or BEC3 first? So many examinations!

Thank you sally! I do have a good time in HKUST. To be honest, I haven't been out doing sight seeing in HK but study all the time in the library. The satisfactory grade gives me a good time.

My friends always ask me to go out with them doing some sight seeing or shopping but I still choose to stay in my room or in the library. Two reasons for my choices. One is that I don't want to spend too much money due to the economics pressure of my family. The transportation fee in HK is considerable and the eating fees are frightening. The other reason is that I want to boost my GPA. Last year I din't study well and could not get the scholarship. In GSM, GPA is everything. Without an excellent academic record, the professors will not achknowledge your ability and you will be just ignored. I know I not only need GPA, I still need other abilities. So I joined the society of management in HKUST. However, I 'm dissappointed with the society. I cannot learn anything in it but just the use of the member fees. Maybe the societies in PKU can introduce the member fees and deposits system to improve the efficiency of the activities.

BTW, I have learned how to make up in the society. Hopefully I look more beautiful after make-up instead of more terrible and frightened.hehe